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Well I move back into my dorm tommorow, finally.  Let me fill you in on what has been going on here the past few days.  Yesterday I finally got my AC Adapter from Dell..I now hate Indians with a passion.  When it broke I called Dell and got shuffled around to 3 differnt departments, when they finally finished getting it in the computer I had been on the phone for 2 hours!  Well I waited the 3 days they said it would be to ship and then I got a phone call...they told me that it was under the wrong address because they thought I said "Pearl Harbor" instead of "Trail Hollow".   The only thing I am proud of is that they got it back here the next day after they called me.

Other than that my weeks have been long and boring, I have mostly been avoiding my parents who want me to do something or give me dirty looks because of college.  Either way I am moving back out and am gald of it!  I have been falling in and out of love for so long now that it doesnt even phase me anymore, however I went to a wedding last weekend...you do know that when you go to weddings you think of your own right?  I did that and I could only imagine being with one person and that was Snow....maybe he is the right one for me!

Anyway...I digress...so I will leave you with this.  I am going to be a better person in 2008!

This is Res signing out.

Well its been a good Christmas and I am ready to get back on track, I got lots of good presents this year including a GPS, Guitar Hero 3, a new Razr, a headset and iTunes monies!  I am back on track with my life and getting ready to hopefully move back into college.  Just a short update for now..maybe a voice post later.

This is Res Signing Out

*throws a desk at a wall*  ARRG!  This is the worst night of my life!!  Damn you Alex!  I had it all figured out..I could be both a cub and a caretaker and there you go telling me I cant do it...that I wasnt mentally there.  I cant do it!  I dont want to be a cub...goddamit!!  I ask no sympathy..and harsh words are expected....*punches a wall*  I dont want to be told I am a child by someone a year older than me no matter how much he thinks he knows!  AND I FRIGGIN UNDERSTAND HOW I AM ACTING!!!!!!!!

Time for an update! I am moving out tomorrow back to the house where I will be living for the holidays...lovely isn't it. That means drastically less computer time for me, but I need it..a nice break to be with the family will do me good. I have to start getting ready for the next semester and all that fun stuff. Lets see...I am mated again, my love life hopefully will now slow down and ease out. This time I know that the people I love love me back, so It is all very good. School-wise I am making it, my grades are not perfect but I will fix it next semester..plus if I mess up again I have something to fall back on. Life is looking up for me.

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It has been an odd week for me, I ended up missing all my classes for the week because I was just dead out of it.  I don't mind too much, two classes I am going to pass no matter what and  the other two look like there is nt much hope.  That really is not the half of it, I want to talk about my internet life.  These past few months my internet life has grown by leaps adn bounds, I have met some really nice people online and want to keep these relationships going.  However I relive how it is affecting me as a normal person, the only reason I get out now is to either eat or walk.

I am never going to give up the people who I call my firends here but I am going to need to find that elusive balance in my life.  I understand that when my parents get my grades and see two failed classes they will be very angry.  I honestly am now ready for it, if they yell and scream all I will tell them is I know that is all my fault and I am willing to make up for it by staying at home next semester and working off my debt.  There is one thing I am prepared for, I am assuming that they will blame this computer for all my problems and try to cut me off from the outside world.  This is a load of BS and I will not be giving up easily.  Anyway...enough ranting for now I will leave you be.

This is Adien Darke signing out

I sit here in my room worried about my future like usual.  It seems that my future is always in some sort of flux and I can never do anything about it.  This time however what happens to me is my own fault.  I was too lazy and wrapped up in my new freedom to  take care of waht need to be done, I will pay the price and move on. I dont really mind what happens though...Anyway!  I have started talking to a special person they are really sweet.  We are taking it slow so lets not say "mates" yet.

Anyway...lets get on with life and see what is up next on the line up...TTYL!!

I spent a majority of today in a bad state, I was more confused than J. Edger Hoover.  I seemed to be having some problems figuring out what excatly I am as far as my fursona is concerned.  Am I  cub or an adult?  Well I had to go and lay down to discover the answer, that I am both.  I have a dominate daddy side and a submissive cubby side both of which need attention.  Luckly for me I can do both off these online without much difficulity, my mind is not one to actually regress.  It is more of a story to me...just fun.  That thin grey line that seperates cub from adult is so fuzzy for me that is almost not there..

Basically I am someone who can switch depending...

I feel the need to speak out on the issue of assholes...they suck and should all die...yes its a short rant but I dont feel like saying anything else about he subject

This week has been...very strange...very odd....and most awesome!  I met a babyfur from Houston and brought him to my dormroom where I got to cuddle for the first time ever!  It rocked out loud!  I think that he will be a true friend for a long time!  Bye the way...if you are his friend and you read his latest post...that is me he is talking about.

My god what a day....ups and downs...highs and lows  been a bitch....  Anyway the ups: I got out of one class today and got to eat early!  Then I came home and actually got to order my Marci badge that I needed to get.  Then came the 6:00 hour and furrytv.  Usually this is a time for laughter and fun but not this time...no not at all!  The host Gamerkitty, who is a very close friend to me got in a fight with the technical director and he stopped the show.  Now it is all in the air...I feel really bad for him.  But that is my night for now...if I feel like it I will make a more detailed post another time.

Well I am posting because I havent done it in some time, so heres the update. I met a guy about 3 months ago and we became fast friends, he is a wonderful person and about 2 weeks ago we kinda "hooked up" so now this babyfur has a mate! Sadly that comes with misfourtune because at the same time a girl told me that she loved me and I tried to, unsucessfully make both relationships work. I had to cut her lose and it killed me...

Anyway now onto school! College has been going rather well and I am enjoying my studies. Some of the test freaked me out but I managed to do pretty good on them. I go home every now and then but dont like to because then I don't get to wear or talk to my mate. Well thats the update and I will try to post more often!

My god am I tired, I now remember what it is like to be back in the hellhole I call home. It was Parent's Day here at SFA and I was forced to spend the day with my family. That means a day of being bossed around, told where to go, what to do, how to do it. Also it means I had to hide my diapers and other things. It sucked so much! But I survived and I dont have to see them for another 2 weeks. Thats for just 2 days too! Lovely! Anyway I need to sleep...

How did you spend summers when you were a kid?

When I was a kid I would always look forward to summer as the time that I would not have to do any work.  No pressures from school, no deadlines, no homework.  It was a great time and I was always having fun, even if I was bored.  Then I turned 15 and my parents discovered chores, I had to do all sorts of things during the day.  No don't get me wrong it wasn't harsh but it was annoying.  Especially becasue if I finished something they expected me to activly look for something else to do.  I hated it!  It was a rough few years after that.  But I like to remember the good times where I could just go swimming and play video games.  I never had many friends so my video games were my escape.

Here I am.  This is how I should be.  When I get up in the morning all I can see is the life that I am living right now.  I am happy I guess.  I like it here and can tolerate most of those around me.  I feel more happiness now than I did though.  I love my boyfriend he is wonderful.  I leave in a few weeks for college it is a good time for me.  I cannot bear to be here in this place much longer.  It is slowly killing me and I hate it.  Soon though I will be on my own and nothing will be able to stop me.  I am a person who is who he is.  Nothing more nothing less.